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- Friday July 10, 2009
Hi All
Adam (Pigcat) emailed me earlier today to see how I was getting on (many of you know I've had acute clinical depression with generalised anxiety disorder and have been quite unwell; in fact I've never felt so ill in my life. I am also a Vicar and have been off work for seven weeks now.)
I replied with an update but it occurred to me that maybe some others of you might be interested, especially as so many of you were good enough to express your concern and show you care.
Anyway, here's what I sent to Adam. Hope it helps; thanks again for all your support and goodwill.
Hi Adam
Thanks for the email, I was just thinking about you this morning.
I'm taking it one day at a time but have a had four very good days in a row now (inc today) and am really hoping the meds are kicking in. I've been ill since the first week of June so I'm ready to get better. My faith and my family have been brilliant. I was tempted to ask where God was or why I was going through this and then I remembered the sign of my God is a cross, not a four-leafed clover: no guarantee of luck, just of a God who goes through it with us and whose story ends well even if it goes through the pit (or the cross) to get there. My family, too, have been through it with me and my wife has been a star -- I am so impressed with the way she has coped and handled me. The kids, too, have a had a bit of a "life lesson" but my nurse said not to feel guilty or worried about them as it is all part of them learning about reality and illness and depression. That really helped me, as I *was* worried and guilty about them, which was making me worse.
The meds have nasty side effects for the first couple of weeks and only after that do they start to work, so it had to get worse before it got better. But as I said, hopefully I'm through the worst of it and on a long and slow (and maybe uneven) road back.
Take care mate and thanks for the email,
Cheers
Ollie
Adam (Pigcat) emailed me earlier today to see how I was getting on (many of you know I've had acute clinical depression with generalised anxiety disorder and have been quite unwell; in fact I've never felt so ill in my life. I am also a Vicar and have been off work for seven weeks now.)
I replied with an update but it occurred to me that maybe some others of you might be interested, especially as so many of you were good enough to express your concern and show you care.
Anyway, here's what I sent to Adam. Hope it helps; thanks again for all your support and goodwill.
Hi Adam
Thanks for the email, I was just thinking about you this morning.
I'm taking it one day at a time but have a had four very good days in a row now (inc today) and am really hoping the meds are kicking in. I've been ill since the first week of June so I'm ready to get better. My faith and my family have been brilliant. I was tempted to ask where God was or why I was going through this and then I remembered the sign of my God is a cross, not a four-leafed clover: no guarantee of luck, just of a God who goes through it with us and whose story ends well even if it goes through the pit (or the cross) to get there. My family, too, have been through it with me and my wife has been a star -- I am so impressed with the way she has coped and handled me. The kids, too, have a had a bit of a "life lesson" but my nurse said not to feel guilty or worried about them as it is all part of them learning about reality and illness and depression. That really helped me, as I *was* worried and guilty about them, which was making me worse.
The meds have nasty side effects for the first couple of weeks and only after that do they start to work, so it had to get worse before it got better. But as I said, hopefully I'm through the worst of it and on a long and slow (and maybe uneven) road back.
Take care mate and thanks for the email,
Cheers
Ollie